battle studies

Thank goodness for Thursday...
in a few hours weekend is about to start.
it is a holiday tomorrow so Friday will be fun fun fun staying late in bed and be a total bum :)
I'm hoping for the intense mood to subside and let me enjoy my long weekend. (please.please.please)

i'll start of with something extremely beautiful..

sweet stef!!

something so sweet!!!!

our dear stef turned 2!!! yehey!!

now she's dancing, playing,

and laughing,

and we watch in awe,

this girl will be amazing!(mana sa ninang!!)

monday blues

i don't really feel good today. my mood flipped over starting this early morning for something that unexpectedly came my way.

i hate disappointments.
i am not good in getting ill-tempered. i admit, it is the worst character that i can handle.
i always try to take things reasonably and take patience because i always believe in all else that happens we always find understanding at the end. but sometimes, the 'immortal' kindness in me shallowed when limits break in. anger beats me and at times i just have to let it lead me.

i asked a guy friend today, is it not easy to tell the truth instead of making excuses? is it that hard to lower down a man's ego just for once? why should one wait instead of looking for answers? is it a big deal to be the one who admits weakness when all you just want is to be honest to yourself? isn't it that the best way to find a way out, is to face and accept reality and deal with it?

i can never know the best answers and reasons, i just want to find understanding in the midst of all these. it has been over a year, i need to move on from here, completely.

so world, please bear with me.




Look What You've Done
JET

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyoneA fool of everyone

define happy

i am leaping to new heights again..

now..let's see how far this 'project' goes.

if i would write a story and create a movie out of it...

this would be my sound-track (OST).

You Could Be Happy

Snow Patrol

You could be happy and I won't knowBut you weren't happy the day I watched you go
And all the things that I wished I had not saidAre played in loops 'till it's madness in my head
Is it too late to remind you how we wereBut not our last days of silence, screaming, blur
Most of what I remember makes me sureI should have stopped you from walking out the door
You could be happy, I hope you areYou made me happier than I'd been by far
Somehow everything I own smells of youAnd for the tiniest moment it's all not true
Do the things that you always wanted toWithout me there to hold you back, don't think, just do
More than anything I want to see you, girlTake a glorious bite out of the whole world

lee min ho

i am about to leave for the day...but then again..i just can't help it!!!

true..true..true...
inaamin ko na talaga...
i have a weakness for pretty boyz!!!
fair, singkit o semi colon man yang mata mo,
matangkad at super nakakaoverwhelm ang ichura!!!
goodness...haaaaay...a good smile is not enough.

my current fantasia...(yes, pagbigyan nyo na!)

coffee and you...i like :)

my 100th!!!

i have my own celebration today. i dunno if anyone can feel me right now, but i am at my most exciting mood.

today, i am reaching it to my 100th entry for my so-called 'anonymous' blogsite.on May 14, 2009, i've made my first piece and since then i've continued writing.whatever thoughts that come out of me... i jotted it down and published it. and to add is my new found (low-key) hobby, my own simple photography.

it was never meant to be told, i started writing out in the open to express the deepest thing i bare to keep everyday. i didn't care much if how many people will read it in a day.my only thought that time was 'it' was meant to be found.

it felt so good when the first comment was posted. that somehow i captured someone'semotion on the words i combined. that i realized, it really did make sense after all.and from then, i surprised myself when words would simply spill out of me to post.

thank you.

for the things that inspired me to do this. it has been always a dream, many times i tried writing short stories, many times i threw away used pens and crumpled papers, many times i typed for hours then ended pressing down the backspace key for half a minute. many times i started a plot, completed a chapter and imagined the ending. many times, i tried and until now, i am still trying.

i first experienced 'i wrote this for you' when my sister gave me the link to check it out. it had been the encouragement i needed to create one of my own. and from that day, i have always been a fan of the artists' works. i may have copied something out of them, but it was the passion to a certain thing you simply loved. and i feel good for them to be able to appreciate that.

vocabulary word is the next for me, i don't know with anyone but searching through new words is one of the best hobby i enjoyed. it might sound 'geeky' but hey, it is super exciting for me!

i found my words from feelings and thoughts, not just from my own but from everything i encountered on the exact moment i started laying my fingers on the keyboard. amazing when few minutes ago, my mind was blank for something to say, and later, i couldn't stop typing down the words i mixed to form accurate lines. lines that make a story.

it's amazing to be able to do it and feel something warm, something really good.

i am writing because it is the best (i believe) i can do to define me.

*if you happen to pass by the blogsite. i hope it can touch you at the places that even words cannot seem to reach.

again. my deepest thanks.

friday the 13th

it is a friend's day. so i make a space for him today on my memory box...

i meet two kinds of friends in life.

the ones who come and can perfectly spell you

with an F, an R, I, plus an E,N,D
and an S with an H-I-P.

and the ones,
that through times when you cannot even bare to spell the word anymore..
stay,
because even from a slight hunch,they know it is still worth trusting.

Happy Birthday!! :)
cheers!!

trippin'

today..
while being pestered finishing a deadline at work..
i need a counterweight to balance my mood...
and so..
my 'trip' is finding wicked cover songs by wicked artists...

the ones who made to the top!!!

fuel by metallica
cover by avril lavigne





with or without you by U2
cover by keane






use somebody by kings of leon
cover by paramore





man in the mirror by michael jackson
cover by james morrison





stairway to heaven by led zeppelin
cover by foo fighters






message in a bottle by sting
cover by john mayer

Si 'Bro' ang star ng Pasko!!

less than 50 days til Christmas... i am starting to get homesick.. when the thought of coming home this holiday is still undecided..

hay naku..dinagdagan pa neto..kakaiyak!!

'Bro', bahala ka na sa dadating na Pasko, okay :)
You are the Man!! :)






Star ng Pasko
(ABS-CBN Artists )

Kung kailan pinakamadilim
Ang mga tala ay mas nagniningning
Gaano man kakapal ang ulap
Sa likod nito ay may liwanag

Ang liwanag na ito
Nasa ‘ting lahat
Mas sinag ang bawat pusong bukas
Sa init ng mga yakap
Maghihilom ang lahat ng sugat

Ang nagsindi nitong ilaw
Walang iba kundi ikaw
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko

Tayo ang ilaw sa madilim na daan
Pagkakapit bisig ngayon higpitan
Dumaan man sa malakas na alon
Lahat tayo’s makakaahon

Ang liwanag na ito
Nasa ‘ting lahat
Mas sinag ang bawat pusong bukas
Sa init ng mga yakap
Maghihilom ang lahat ng sugat

Ang nagsindi nitong ilaw
Walang iba kundi ikaw
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko

Kikislap ang pag-asa
Kahit kanino man
Dahil ikaw Bro, dahil ikaw Bro
Dahil ikaw Bro
Ang star ng pasko

Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko

Ang nagsindi nitong ilaw
Walang iba kundi ikaw
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko

Ang nagsindi nitong ilaw
Walang iba kundi ikaw
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko

Ang nagsindi nitong ilaw
Walang iba kundi ikaw
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko

Dahil ikaw Bro, dahil ikaw Bro
Dahil ikaw Bro
Ang star ng pasko!

silver lining

i asked..and i was answered..

i reached..and i was held..

i weeped..and i was comforted..

i confessed..and i was forgiven..

i was dying..and now.. i am saved..

it is overwhelming to know

that there is an Absolute Being

greater than all of us..way beyond what we see..

far more than what we imagine..

faith has always been the best way.

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i love this song. makes me remember worship during Sunday service. anywhere, this never fails to astound.

Eagle's Wings

-Hillsong-

Here I am waiting, abide in me, I pray

Here I am longing for You

Hide me in Your love, bring me to my knees

May I know Jesus more and more

Come live in me all my life, take over

Come breathe in me, I will rise on eagle's wings

Come live in me all my life, take over

Come breathe in me, I will rise on eagle's wings

Here I am waiting, abide in me, I pray

Here I am longing for You

Hide me in Your love, bring me to my knees

May I know Jesus more and more
Come live in me all my life, take over

Come breathe in me, I will rise on eagle's wings

Come live in me all my life, take over

Come breathe in me, I will rise on eagle's wings

Come live in me all my life, take over

Come breathe in me, I will rise on eagle's wings

I will rise on eagle's wings, I will rise on eagle's wings

I will rise on eagle's wings, I will rise on eagle's wings

I will rise on eagle's wings, I will rise on eagle's wings

On eagle's wings

COLDPLAYing!

it breaks my heart whenever i hear them, can't believe i missed their Singapore tour..

but i always end up falling in love with their art! i sooo LOVE!!!

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LOST

Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserved
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I tried to cross
Every door I ever tried was locked
Oh and I'm just waiting 'til the shine wears off

You might be a big fish in a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one

And you'll be lost
Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Oh and I'm just waiting 'til the firing stopped
Oh and I'm just waiting 'til the shine wears off
Oh and I'm just waiting 'til the shine wears off
Oh and I'm just waiting 'til the shine wears off

i miss.. i miss.. i miss..

i miss....


1) eating fresh from the oven pandesal!!!! with butter yummm!!!!

2) good ol' days when classes are cancelled due to heavy rains and you do
nothing all day but stay in bed and curled under the cold sheets..
hhhmmmmm...sarap!!!

3) i miss highschool! the peak of my 'young' life - 'sweet' life, i guess.





4) i miss my bestfriend!!!
hay, eys..basta i miss..













5) i miss Manila!!! i simply love the place.. tambay in UST or Vto. Cruz, walking along Dapitan, Ayala Ave., Malate... the lifestyle "Pinoy" way.


6) i miss a joy ride! anywhere..hanggang may daan..go!


7) i miss my old colleagues, both from the Phils. (P/A) and Singapore (SRSS). memories of a typical day with everyone else is sooooooo nakakamiss!!!!



8) i miss staying at home. being a bum even just for a while and feeling far away from everyone.



9) i miss laughing..(even i always do). i love laughing...
even smiling... i like smiling :) it should be a habit.






10) i miss this...



aaaaahhhh.....take me back, please....

because i really fell in love with the warmth and comfort this paradise gave me.. soon!!! :)

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my thoughts exactly

moments when you just feel down and very troubled. you keep on thinking what could the reasons be but your mind is empty of answers. you keep on going, enacting someone's smile, echoing friends' laughter, playing the role of a-happy-go-lucky person just so everyone thinks you are superhuman or rather you yourself believe that you are invinsible! but you are not. until the truth chases you as you run to hide, and no matter how far you go, it tracks you, and in how many times you throw it out your way, it just tumbles back in front of you.

i just say...

'i can live in the life of fear,
or i can live in the best version of myself' *

every cloud has a silver lining...and i am hopeful :)

volume up and push that earphones closer...



STORM
by Lifehouse

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everything is alright

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If i'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everything is alright
Everything's alright
Everything's alright

let that be enough

-SWITCHFOOT-

I wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone

And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land

And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles
Spend their time collapsing

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough

It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago

And I feel stuck
Watching history repeating
Yeah, who am I?
Just a kid who knows he's needy

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough


this is my song today. pag wala akong masabi, dinadaan ko nalang sa kanta.
this too is my silent prayer :)

goodnight, travel well

a vague vision ...

there was a high steep wall with not much corners to grip on. but i climbed farther up and high. seeing my dad at the peak, i strived harder. but then the top most part was getting softer and it wasn't easy to hold on to. i haven't had a choice for i couldn't do it any longer, i fell down to endless heights.

curled between soft cushions. i tried to squeezed myself out realizing i was trapped deep below. i pushed myself up until i climbed out to a wide spread of fluffy bed seeing some familiar faces who just did the same. i looked back at the soft crack to check if it was real. it was.

i was stock in a small compartment that suddenly moved away from a platform,like a train slowly driving its way through a dark tunnel. i realized that the box started to shrink trapping me breathless inside.

...and i force myself to wake up.

it all happened in one night. dreams that haunt me now.
what do you expect me to think???
yes. i therefore conclude baliw na nga ako! i've completely lost my sanity.




Goodnight Travel Well
'the killers'

The unknown distance to the great beyond
Stares back at my grieving frame
To cast my shadow by the holy sun
My spirit moans with a sacred pain
And it's quiet now
The universe is standing still

There's nothing I can say
There's nothing we can do now
There's nothing I can say
There's nothing we can do now

And all that stands between the souls release ?
This temporary flesh and bone
We know that it's over now
I feel my faded mind begin to roam

Every time you fall
And every time you try
Every foolish dream
And every compromise
Every word you spoke
And everything you said
Everything you left me, rambles in my head

There's nothing I can say
There's nothing I can do now
There's nothing I can say
There's nothing I can do now

Up above the world so high

And everything you loved
And every time you try
Everybody's watching
Everybody cry

Stay, don't leave me
The stars can wait for your sign
Don't signal now

And there's nothing I can say
There's nothing I can do now
There's nothing I can say
There's nothing we can do now

Goodnight, travel well
Goodnight, travel well

And there's nothing I can say
There's nothing I can do now