happy holidays!!!

friday addiction

my laziness is killing me!! so i need a sedative to balance 'me' today.
hmmm... i've been looking through live performances @ the 'shrine of original music'--Abbey Road.
what can i say... pure awesomeness!!!! these artists are heavensent! best :) enjoy!


red hot chili peppers - doni california




the killers -when you were young




panic at the disco - i write sins not tragedies



matchbox 20 - bright lights




snow patrol - chasing cars



jamiroquai - love foolosophy

run...where??

run by snow patrol

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower Slower
We don't have time for that
All i want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

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Monday!

I don’t like Mondays

Tell me whyI don’t like Mondays

Tell me why I don’t like Mondays

I wanna shoo-oo-oo-oo-oo-oot

The whole day down, down, down, shoot it all down

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the love you want

and because it is December. i am trying to remember my favorite things...

hmm.. i remember this clearly. bakit ba, i love love this song, it reminds me of the 'meteor garden' days..

ni yao de ai

happiness...where are you?

Happiness
The Fray

Happiness is just outside my window
Would it crash blowing 80-miles an hour?
Or is happiness a little more like knocking
On your door, and you just let it in?

Happiness feels a lot like sorrow
Let it be, you can’t make it come or go
But you are gone- not for good but for now
Gone for now feels a lot like gone for good

Happiness is a firecracker sitting on my headboard
Happiness was never mine to hold
Careful child, light the fuse and get away
‘Cause happiness throws a shower of sparks

Happiness damn near destroys you
Breaks your faith to pieces on the floor
So you tell yourself, that’s enough for now
Happiness has a violent roar

Happiness is like the old man told me
Look for it, but you’ll never find it all
Let it go, live your life and leave it
Then one day, wake up and she’ll be home
Home, home, home

my birthday weekend!!!

1st round...

tambay sa eastcoast

mga kanto geys..
kung gusto nyo tambay on friday, dec.4. 6pm-onwards sa east coast-area c- pit c28

(malapit sa mcdo, kumaliwa ka pagharap mo ng dagat,owkei)

tandaan:

dami food, so gutom ka dapat!!! limited drinks, so nakainom ka na dapat!!!

FYI!!
hindi ko pa birthday so hindi eto party! nagkayayaan lang!!!

(alliby eto pra sa mga hindi imbitado!)

after the rain, it was a full all star cast friday!!!:)

today

Do What You Have To Do
Sarah Mclachlan

What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage
created you a monster
broken by the rules of love
and fate has lead you through it
you do what you have to do
and fate has led you through it
you do what you have to do ...

and I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
but I have the sense to recognize

that I don't know how
to let you go
I don't know how
to let you go

a glowing ember
burning hot
burning slow
deep within

I'm shaken by the violence
of existing for only you

I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
and I have sense to recognize but

I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go

Paskuhan sa USTe

it has been how many years..

today, i just want to remember how i miss this place.

especially during Christmas.

lights, parade, music, fireworks, and Thomasians!

i love my alma matter.

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if only...

this is my one ultimate wish for

my birthday!!!

09 Slingshot Drama 134 Wakeboard. A dedicated women's specific board, designed for more aggressive riders like Team Rider Heather Johnson rippin' on rails and stylinÌ off the wake. The 3-Stage rocker, elliptical concave on tip and tail, and the NEW Taperwall? sidewalls offer the most effortless pop, jitter free edge to edge control and the softest landings ever! The Drama is a dedicated aggressive 3-stage wakeboard for the hard charging female rider who demands performance and control most boys can't handle! Future Response Technology? - delivers flex control, rebound, energy and pop. A combination of Acrylic Aerospace Foam with vertically laminated wood stringers and a solid Poplar wood core base. Dura Base? - the most durable base available. Taperwall? - added stability. Elliptical Concave - smoother edge to edge transition. 3-Stage Rocker - most aggressive pop. HDLW (High Density Light Weight) PVC rails and tips - extremely impact resistant and tunable. 4-Hole? - superior boot board connection compared to standard 2 hole configurations. Handmade by Slingshot in the USA / Slingshot legendary construction - bomber quality.

you can never say never

Say Never
-The Fray-

Some things we don't talk about
better do without
and just hold a smile
falling in and out of love
a scene their proud of
together all the while

You can never say never while we don't know it
time and time again
younger now then we were before
dont let me go, dont let me go, dont let me go
dont let me go, dont let me go, dont let me go

Picture you're the queen of everything
as far as the eye can seeunder your command
I will be your guardian from all that's coming down
steady your hand

You can never say never while we don't know it
time time and time again
younger now then we were before
dont let me go, dont let me go, dont let me go
dont let me go, dont let me go, dont let me go.

We're falling apart,
we're coming together,
again and again
we're crawling apart,
but we're falling together,
falling together
together again

don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go. (oh oh oh)
don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go. (ohhhh ohhh)
don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go. (ohhh ohhh)
don't let me go, don't let me go, don't let me go.(ohohhohhh)

hello December!

First day of December and i'm feeling the vibes!!!

It's goin to be a good good time!!

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true

...all i want for Christmas...is YOU!!!

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battle studies

Thank goodness for Thursday...
in a few hours weekend is about to start.
it is a holiday tomorrow so Friday will be fun fun fun staying late in bed and be a total bum :)
I'm hoping for the intense mood to subside and let me enjoy my long weekend. (please.please.please)

i'll start of with something extremely beautiful..

sweet stef!!

something so sweet!!!!

our dear stef turned 2!!! yehey!!

now she's dancing, playing,

and laughing,

and we watch in awe,

this girl will be amazing!(mana sa ninang!!)

monday blues

i don't really feel good today. my mood flipped over starting this early morning for something that unexpectedly came my way.

i hate disappointments.
i am not good in getting ill-tempered. i admit, it is the worst character that i can handle.
i always try to take things reasonably and take patience because i always believe in all else that happens we always find understanding at the end. but sometimes, the 'immortal' kindness in me shallowed when limits break in. anger beats me and at times i just have to let it lead me.

i asked a guy friend today, is it not easy to tell the truth instead of making excuses? is it that hard to lower down a man's ego just for once? why should one wait instead of looking for answers? is it a big deal to be the one who admits weakness when all you just want is to be honest to yourself? isn't it that the best way to find a way out, is to face and accept reality and deal with it?

i can never know the best answers and reasons, i just want to find understanding in the midst of all these. it has been over a year, i need to move on from here, completely.

so world, please bear with me.




Look What You've Done
JET

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyoneA fool of everyone

define happy

i am leaping to new heights again..

now..let's see how far this 'project' goes.

if i would write a story and create a movie out of it...

this would be my sound-track (OST).

You Could Be Happy

Snow Patrol

You could be happy and I won't knowBut you weren't happy the day I watched you go
And all the things that I wished I had not saidAre played in loops 'till it's madness in my head
Is it too late to remind you how we wereBut not our last days of silence, screaming, blur
Most of what I remember makes me sureI should have stopped you from walking out the door
You could be happy, I hope you areYou made me happier than I'd been by far
Somehow everything I own smells of youAnd for the tiniest moment it's all not true
Do the things that you always wanted toWithout me there to hold you back, don't think, just do
More than anything I want to see you, girlTake a glorious bite out of the whole world

lee min ho

i am about to leave for the day...but then again..i just can't help it!!!

true..true..true...
inaamin ko na talaga...
i have a weakness for pretty boyz!!!
fair, singkit o semi colon man yang mata mo,
matangkad at super nakakaoverwhelm ang ichura!!!
goodness...haaaaay...a good smile is not enough.

my current fantasia...(yes, pagbigyan nyo na!)

coffee and you...i like :)

my 100th!!!

i have my own celebration today. i dunno if anyone can feel me right now, but i am at my most exciting mood.

today, i am reaching it to my 100th entry for my so-called 'anonymous' blogsite.on May 14, 2009, i've made my first piece and since then i've continued writing.whatever thoughts that come out of me... i jotted it down and published it. and to add is my new found (low-key) hobby, my own simple photography.

it was never meant to be told, i started writing out in the open to express the deepest thing i bare to keep everyday. i didn't care much if how many people will read it in a day.my only thought that time was 'it' was meant to be found.

it felt so good when the first comment was posted. that somehow i captured someone'semotion on the words i combined. that i realized, it really did make sense after all.and from then, i surprised myself when words would simply spill out of me to post.

thank you.

for the things that inspired me to do this. it has been always a dream, many times i tried writing short stories, many times i threw away used pens and crumpled papers, many times i typed for hours then ended pressing down the backspace key for half a minute. many times i started a plot, completed a chapter and imagined the ending. many times, i tried and until now, i am still trying.

i first experienced 'i wrote this for you' when my sister gave me the link to check it out. it had been the encouragement i needed to create one of my own. and from that day, i have always been a fan of the artists' works. i may have copied something out of them, but it was the passion to a certain thing you simply loved. and i feel good for them to be able to appreciate that.

vocabulary word is the next for me, i don't know with anyone but searching through new words is one of the best hobby i enjoyed. it might sound 'geeky' but hey, it is super exciting for me!

i found my words from feelings and thoughts, not just from my own but from everything i encountered on the exact moment i started laying my fingers on the keyboard. amazing when few minutes ago, my mind was blank for something to say, and later, i couldn't stop typing down the words i mixed to form accurate lines. lines that make a story.

it's amazing to be able to do it and feel something warm, something really good.

i am writing because it is the best (i believe) i can do to define me.

*if you happen to pass by the blogsite. i hope it can touch you at the places that even words cannot seem to reach.

again. my deepest thanks.

friday the 13th

it is a friend's day. so i make a space for him today on my memory box...

i meet two kinds of friends in life.

the ones who come and can perfectly spell you

with an F, an R, I, plus an E,N,D
and an S with an H-I-P.

and the ones,
that through times when you cannot even bare to spell the word anymore..
stay,
because even from a slight hunch,they know it is still worth trusting.

Happy Birthday!! :)
cheers!!

trippin'

today..
while being pestered finishing a deadline at work..
i need a counterweight to balance my mood...
and so..
my 'trip' is finding wicked cover songs by wicked artists...

the ones who made to the top!!!

fuel by metallica
cover by avril lavigne





with or without you by U2
cover by keane






use somebody by kings of leon
cover by paramore





man in the mirror by michael jackson
cover by james morrison





stairway to heaven by led zeppelin
cover by foo fighters






message in a bottle by sting
cover by john mayer

Si 'Bro' ang star ng Pasko!!

less than 50 days til Christmas... i am starting to get homesick.. when the thought of coming home this holiday is still undecided..

hay naku..dinagdagan pa neto..kakaiyak!!

'Bro', bahala ka na sa dadating na Pasko, okay :)
You are the Man!! :)






Star ng Pasko
(ABS-CBN Artists )

Kung kailan pinakamadilim
Ang mga tala ay mas nagniningning
Gaano man kakapal ang ulap
Sa likod nito ay may liwanag

Ang liwanag na ito
Nasa ‘ting lahat
Mas sinag ang bawat pusong bukas
Sa init ng mga yakap
Maghihilom ang lahat ng sugat

Ang nagsindi nitong ilaw
Walang iba kundi ikaw
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko

Tayo ang ilaw sa madilim na daan
Pagkakapit bisig ngayon higpitan
Dumaan man sa malakas na alon
Lahat tayo’s makakaahon

Ang liwanag na ito
Nasa ‘ting lahat
Mas sinag ang bawat pusong bukas
Sa init ng mga yakap
Maghihilom ang lahat ng sugat

Ang nagsindi nitong ilaw
Walang iba kundi ikaw
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko

Kikislap ang pag-asa
Kahit kanino man
Dahil ikaw Bro, dahil ikaw Bro
Dahil ikaw Bro
Ang star ng pasko

Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko

Ang nagsindi nitong ilaw
Walang iba kundi ikaw
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko

Ang nagsindi nitong ilaw
Walang iba kundi ikaw
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko

Ang nagsindi nitong ilaw
Walang iba kundi ikaw
Salamat sa liwanag mo
Muling magkakakulay ang pasko

Dahil ikaw Bro, dahil ikaw Bro
Dahil ikaw Bro
Ang star ng pasko!

silver lining

i asked..and i was answered..

i reached..and i was held..

i weeped..and i was comforted..

i confessed..and i was forgiven..

i was dying..and now.. i am saved..

it is overwhelming to know

that there is an Absolute Being

greater than all of us..way beyond what we see..

far more than what we imagine..

faith has always been the best way.

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i love this song. makes me remember worship during Sunday service. anywhere, this never fails to astound.

Eagle's Wings

-Hillsong-

Here I am waiting, abide in me, I pray

Here I am longing for You

Hide me in Your love, bring me to my knees

May I know Jesus more and more

Come live in me all my life, take over

Come breathe in me, I will rise on eagle's wings

Come live in me all my life, take over

Come breathe in me, I will rise on eagle's wings

Here I am waiting, abide in me, I pray

Here I am longing for You

Hide me in Your love, bring me to my knees

May I know Jesus more and more
Come live in me all my life, take over

Come breathe in me, I will rise on eagle's wings

Come live in me all my life, take over

Come breathe in me, I will rise on eagle's wings

Come live in me all my life, take over

Come breathe in me, I will rise on eagle's wings

I will rise on eagle's wings, I will rise on eagle's wings

I will rise on eagle's wings, I will rise on eagle's wings

I will rise on eagle's wings, I will rise on eagle's wings

On eagle's wings

COLDPLAYing!

it breaks my heart whenever i hear them, can't believe i missed their Singapore tour..

but i always end up falling in love with their art! i sooo LOVE!!!

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LOST

Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I will cross

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserved
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I tried to cross
Every door I ever tried was locked
Oh and I'm just waiting 'til the shine wears off

You might be a big fish in a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one

And you'll be lost
Every river that you tried to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Oh and I'm just waiting 'til the firing stopped
Oh and I'm just waiting 'til the shine wears off
Oh and I'm just waiting 'til the shine wears off
Oh and I'm just waiting 'til the shine wears off

i miss.. i miss.. i miss..

i miss....


1) eating fresh from the oven pandesal!!!! with butter yummm!!!!

2) good ol' days when classes are cancelled due to heavy rains and you do
nothing all day but stay in bed and curled under the cold sheets..
hhhmmmmm...sarap!!!

3) i miss highschool! the peak of my 'young' life - 'sweet' life, i guess.





4) i miss my bestfriend!!!
hay, eys..basta i miss..













5) i miss Manila!!! i simply love the place.. tambay in UST or Vto. Cruz, walking along Dapitan, Ayala Ave., Malate... the lifestyle "Pinoy" way.


6) i miss a joy ride! anywhere..hanggang may daan..go!


7) i miss my old colleagues, both from the Phils. (P/A) and Singapore (SRSS). memories of a typical day with everyone else is sooooooo nakakamiss!!!!



8) i miss staying at home. being a bum even just for a while and feeling far away from everyone.



9) i miss laughing..(even i always do). i love laughing...
even smiling... i like smiling :) it should be a habit.






10) i miss this...



aaaaahhhh.....take me back, please....

because i really fell in love with the warmth and comfort this paradise gave me.. soon!!! :)

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my thoughts exactly

moments when you just feel down and very troubled. you keep on thinking what could the reasons be but your mind is empty of answers. you keep on going, enacting someone's smile, echoing friends' laughter, playing the role of a-happy-go-lucky person just so everyone thinks you are superhuman or rather you yourself believe that you are invinsible! but you are not. until the truth chases you as you run to hide, and no matter how far you go, it tracks you, and in how many times you throw it out your way, it just tumbles back in front of you.

i just say...

'i can live in the life of fear,
or i can live in the best version of myself' *

every cloud has a silver lining...and i am hopeful :)

volume up and push that earphones closer...



STORM
by Lifehouse

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everything is alright

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If i'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everything is alright
Everything's alright
Everything's alright

let that be enough

-SWITCHFOOT-

I wish I had what I needed
To be on my own
'Cause I feel so defeated
And I'm feeling alone

And it all seems so helpless
And I have no plans
I'm a plane in the sunset
With nowhere to land

And all I see
It could never make me happy
And all my sand castles
Spend their time collapsing

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough

It's my birthday tomorrow
No one here could know
I was born this Thursday
22 years ago

And I feel stuck
Watching history repeating
Yeah, who am I?
Just a kid who knows he's needy

Let me know that You hear me
Let me know Your touch
Let me know that You love me
And let that be enough


this is my song today. pag wala akong masabi, dinadaan ko nalang sa kanta.
this too is my silent prayer :)

goodnight, travel well

a vague vision ...

there was a high steep wall with not much corners to grip on. but i climbed farther up and high. seeing my dad at the peak, i strived harder. but then the top most part was getting softer and it wasn't easy to hold on to. i haven't had a choice for i couldn't do it any longer, i fell down to endless heights.

curled between soft cushions. i tried to squeezed myself out realizing i was trapped deep below. i pushed myself up until i climbed out to a wide spread of fluffy bed seeing some familiar faces who just did the same. i looked back at the soft crack to check if it was real. it was.

i was stock in a small compartment that suddenly moved away from a platform,like a train slowly driving its way through a dark tunnel. i realized that the box started to shrink trapping me breathless inside.

...and i force myself to wake up.

it all happened in one night. dreams that haunt me now.
what do you expect me to think???
yes. i therefore conclude baliw na nga ako! i've completely lost my sanity.




Goodnight Travel Well
'the killers'

The unknown distance to the great beyond
Stares back at my grieving frame
To cast my shadow by the holy sun
My spirit moans with a sacred pain
And it's quiet now
The universe is standing still

There's nothing I can say
There's nothing we can do now
There's nothing I can say
There's nothing we can do now

And all that stands between the souls release ?
This temporary flesh and bone
We know that it's over now
I feel my faded mind begin to roam

Every time you fall
And every time you try
Every foolish dream
And every compromise
Every word you spoke
And everything you said
Everything you left me, rambles in my head

There's nothing I can say
There's nothing I can do now
There's nothing I can say
There's nothing I can do now

Up above the world so high

And everything you loved
And every time you try
Everybody's watching
Everybody cry

Stay, don't leave me
The stars can wait for your sign
Don't signal now

And there's nothing I can say
There's nothing I can do now
There's nothing I can say
There's nothing we can do now

Goodnight, travel well
Goodnight, travel well

And there's nothing I can say
There's nothing I can do now

sad thing

be ready for the meltdown.

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I saw you... you in me

I saw you... here in me

It's so sad… saddest thing...

thursday muse-day

muse (as a verb)

Definition: think about, dream

Synonyms: be lost in thought, brood, build castles in air, chew over, cogitate, consider, contemplate, deliberate, feel, meditate, moon*, mull over, percolate, ponder, puzzle over, reflect, revolve, roll, ruminate, speculate, think, think over, turn over, weigh

Antonyms: ignore, neglect

muse (as a noun)

- the goddess or the power regarded as inspiring a poet, artist, thinker, or the like.

- the genius or powers characteristic of a poet.


i am both..
i am musing right now, about nothin (& sometimes nothin means everything)..
and i am in deep need of a muse..
oh well.




Left of the Middle - Natalie Imbruglia

my absolute song

Opaline - Dishwalla

summer dies here and so could I
somewhere underneath
where the ground is made of stars
and everything unclean
your opaline is everything I see
your opaline brings me to my knees

summer dies here and so could I
somewhere underneath
so much like the ones in and on my skin
and somewhere in between
this opaline is everything I see
your opaline brings me to my knees

without you I am nothing
without you I can't believe
this gilded place has everything
but this comfort is not what it seems
it is not what it seems
in between is everything I need

your opaline is everything I see
this opaline brings me to my knees
your opaline brings me to my knees

spolarium

after hours sitting..
trying to keep myself busy, trying to think something worth thinking,
trying.trying.haay... trying to make sense...

I...have given up. FINE! sabi ko nga continuation to nang kahapon..

Tuesday is 'what's left of Monday'! (live with it!)


when I simply don't make sense...
I love to hear this song...
why???
kse hindi ko rin naiintindihan ang ibig sabihin ng kantang to.
it simply makes me feel good!

Eraserheads makes it worthwhile...somehow :)

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tribute to friends

'i can never explain myself, my friends understand,
the rest won't believe me anyway.'

someone told me that i think of others first more than myself..
somehow, it felt wrong.. i should be loving myself more than anyone.
but then i realized..finding my self-worth is 'me' being selfless.
i come to love myself more when i know i'm extending love to someone.

'we are responsible to one another'

for friends i lost.
friends i missed.
and friends i found. i kept.

thank you.




(excerpt from Across the Universe movie)


With A Little Help From My Friends - Beatles

What would you do if I sang out of tune
would youstand up and walk out on me?
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song
and I'lltry not to sing out of key.

Oh..
I get by with a little help from my friends.
Mm, I gethigh with a little help from my friends.
Mm, I'm gonnatry with a little help from my friends.

What do I do when my loveis away,
does itworry you to be alone?
How do I feel by the end of the day,
are yousad because you're on your own?

No..
I get by with a little help from my friends.
Mm, I gethigh with a little help from my friends.
Mm, I'm gonnatry with a little help from my friends.

Do you need anybody?
I need somebody to love.
Could itbe anybody?
I want somebody to love.

Would you belivee in a love at first sight?
Yes, I'mcertain that it happens all the time.
What do you see when you turn out the light?
I can'ttell you but I know it's mine.

Oh..
I get by with a little help from my friends.
Mm, I gethigh with a little help from my friends.
Mm, I'm gonnatry with a little help from my friends.

LSS (Last Song Syndrome)..out of nowhere

i woke up this morning,humming...'kung ako na lng sana ang yong minahal..' (by Bituin Escalante)..

HUH?!?!!!!

did something just happened last night that i did not know about? was it my subconscious mind? did i have a specific dream that resulted to me, singing a song for the heart-broken? am i just making fun of my 'other' self?

haaay..probably? might be? possible? you know.

i for one, would never be seen naturally playing this song. i loved the artist and the melody is okay, but no. 'thank you' but it would not be a part of my playlist.. i had never been a fan of a mushy love song.

but.but.but...out of nothing to do this friday..i will dare myself to make this unusual behavior (this morning) a bigger deal to make sense out of it...somehow.i hope. just for the fun of it:)

okay..Google search...kung ako nalang sana lyrics....

(goodluck...i really told myself silently)

Heto ka na naman
Kumakatok saking pintuan
Muli naghahanap ng makakausap
At heto naman ako
Nakikinig sa mga kwento mong paulit-ulit lang
Nagtitiis kahit nasasaktan ...

(here you are again
knocking on my door
looking for someone to talk to
and here i am
listening to your old stories
enduring even e'm hurting)

(goose bumps starting...did i just translate it in english???)


Ewan ko bakit ba hindi ka pa nadadala
Hindi ba't kailan lang nang ika'y iwanan nya
At ewan ko nga sa 'yo
Parang balewala ang puso ko
Ano nga bang meron siya
Na sa akin ay di mo makita ...

(i don't know why you haven't gotten tired of it
and i thought she just left you
i don't really know with you
i feel i was never important
what does she has
that you cannot find in me...)

(ek!! yawning!!!)

Kung ako na lang sana ang iyong minahal
Di ka na muling mag-iisa
Kung ako na lang sana ang iyong minahal
Di ka na muling luluha pa
Di ka na mangangailangan pang humanap ng iba
Narito ang puso ko
Naghihintay lamang sa iyo, oh-oh-oh ...

(if i was the one you loved
you wouldn't have to be alone
if i was the one you loved
you would not cry again
you wouldn't look for anything else
here is my heart
waiting for you...)

(OMG! my eyes are drooling..tumitirik na ang mata ko!)

Heto pa rin ako
Umaasang ang puso mo
Baka sakali pang ito'y magbago
Narito lang ako
Kasama mo buong buhay mo
Ang kulang na lang
Mahalin mo rin akong lubusan ...

(i'm still here,
hoping for your heart
it might change in time
i'm just here
waiting for you to love me..)


(......zzzzzz...tulog or did i just had a stroke!)


haaaay..and i thought i wouldn't be able to finish translating..heartattack!
i'm just thinking...if it happened in my dreams... i do not think i will be able to survive it, binangungot na siguro ako!!!
but obviously i survived!
now the sense out of this??? hmmmm....
i won the dare!! was able to finish the song..even through reading.
and.and.and..
i just realize..maybe i'm stronger enduring things when, unconscious.
hmmm...now i know what to do!!! can't deal with 'suffering' moments? go to bed and sleep!

p.s.
Kung ako na lang sana, oh-oh-oh..
(if only i was the one....)

yikeeeee!!!!
'inaasar ko lang ang sarili ko'...
yes i do that most of the time..teasing the 'other me' ...hehehehe


para sa wala!! :) zzzzzz....

U2? me too!!

and i thought i won't survive this loooong quiet day....few.more.mi-nutes! yes.....



thanks for a friend's post.

this awakened and filled my empty mood.... :)

http://www.youtube.com/user/U2official

25 things for today

i have posted this under notes on my fb account last
February 20, 2009.

something to keep me busy and sane..

25 things...i can think of.. :)



1. my name "orpha" came from the bible..
Ruth 1:4













2. i have a hard time crossing the overhead bridge..i just discovered that i have fear of heights when i got to Singapore



3. sometimes i get surprised when i heard an unfamiliar nice song and started singing then realized i knew the lyrics..strange but cool!!!

4. i grew up in loud live music,late night events, the smell of booze and smokes the night and morning after, all the chaos and fun on a regular day in a bar.. my parents owned a bistro that had been our 2nd home since i was 8 til i turned 16. i still missed it today!!!




5. one glass of water on the side table and clean cold toes before i slump to bed! that's S.O.P.!










6. love my weekends! specially going to BAtam! It's like coming back to my hometown in the Philippines, Bataan (it even sounds like it!), the ferry ride, the sea and mountains, the quiet atmosphere..everything.. it's like chilling out on my backyard, just wish i have the real cable ski parkat the back of my house in the Phils. aggh! heaven!!!




7. reading is my life and writing is my one true love!




8. wakeboarding is an intoxicating bliss!!
and yes i am an addict!





9. craves for porkchops.fried toasted porkchops!!! but can't have it now coz my teeth hurt!!damn braces!


10. proud to be a good cook..my secret ingredient? TLC!!!


11. apathy.. is a very weird feeling right now..




12. have an awesome childhood!!!


the only thing i missed was to know how to ride the bike.


not too late, right?!





13. every given day at work..i still try to discover the "art" of AutoCAD!


14. sushi is the best comfort food ever!!! i badly want one right this very second! :)


15. MAY, please take me now!


can't wait for it..10-day vacation in the Phils.! yahoo!


(over and done with!!! one of the best trips i had! CWC and Boracay)



16. since college i was known to be the 'person to beat' during drinking sessions..i'm not an alcoholic..i just have a high-tolerance in alcohol..i can't help it, i guess it's genetic!my sister's better than me! haha..








17. i'm not a talker...i reserve my voice for better things to say, time is too precious to lose on empty words and gibberish statements.. we all are looking for that good conversation, right :)


18. i love having real friends around me, the one you can be just who you are..no explanations,no expectations, no pride, no questions asked..just you and me.. then it's okay:)


19. i don't really know how to swim... i'm just good in pretending..thank you, my ten-80 vest, for keeping me alive!










20. every day i look for a vocabulary word to know, atleast it's a piece of thought to learn each daymy word for the day is -


stu·pe·fy [stoo-puh-fahy)
–verb (used with object), -fied, -fy·ing. 1. to put into a state of little or no sensibility; benumb the faculties of; put into a stupor. 2. to stun, as with a narcotic, a shock, or a strong emotion. 3. to overwhelm with amazement; astound; astonish.
hhmmm...


21. can't wait for the day i come back to Pinas and settle... nothing compares to the life you have, feeling you're finally homeafter the strife and atlast 'something wonderful' has come to stay...








22. until now, i'm stil in denial that i won't be able to go to the Coldplay concert!!! sold-out in just one day! aaagh! i should have not slept all monday! but Greenday is coming...and John Mayer is starting his tour!!!! ooohh...

23. there's something in december that i love.. it's not just christmas and birthday, it's that feeling of excitement that you're getting near a turning point and surviving another one as always.. there goes a profound moment again!








24. here's the thing, in every new word each day..every morning i also get a doze of good lines to ponder...what i read today is -

'You lose yourself in the black, trying to find someone, anyone who really gets you.What you don't know, is that you've already found them. Stop looking. Start finding. You are more than the people and things you know. You are more than your memories. You are something beyond all this. But only you know what that is.'

double hhmmm...deep and emo...but makes total sense...


25. i blog...during office hours..nothing compares to the intensity it gives...the beauty of multi-tasking :)

slow dancing

it has been a dragging week..well it's not yet done i know, but for sure friday (which is tomorrow )will all be just the same... boredom is keeping me company once again. no matter how i try to kick it out my door. gawd, it cries back to stay with me. the only thing that i look forward to is the time to go home and bond with my bed..haaah.. the goodnight sleep is all that is exciting right now. no thoughts. no stress. no bore!!

i might sound like nothing is really happening with my life...
well i guess so..but i'm not worried...
as i believe and say it..'this' is just a 'phase'...






this is the mode i'm in..
i love John Mayer!
makes-me-feel-so-goooood....

101009

when you have good friends around you,

life seems easier..happier...worth living.

e ano pa if you have the craziest!!

same...with matching tumbling on the sides!!
and wasakan ng panga! (jawbreak)

hahaha...love these guys..

edgar's birthday. oct10'09. 33 leithe road.

it wasn't just a friends' gathering.

'twas a family reunion. :)

1001-0509

I was back in Pinas last weekend..fun fun fun!!!It was my lil' sister's 12th birthday..
and I was the surprised big gift for her!!! hihi..

(excuse me, hindi ako yung katabi ng sister ko ha!)

my birthday gift to everyone!!! (i've missed the rest's birthdays!) now it wii party time!!

Friday was a trip back to the farm.. Pepeng was already within the vicinity..nagbabadya ng malakas na ulan. but all was good coz i had the chance to try fishing with mom and gian..catching two big tilapia!!wohoo..not bad!! first time ko kayang mamingwit!!

Saturday was another trip to the farm. family day.. mega lunch eto sa kasagsagan ng bagyo!!

saw my dad's original handcrafted wooden furniture..goooood!!!

the rocking bench!! :)

the un-rocking bench...

(ang sososyal ng mga model!)

Sunday. after church we were supposed to go to Balanga City..but ended up in SM Pampanga..extended celebration of Lyra's bday.

we had fun trying masks na pang-welding. nagmuka kmeng mga robot...hehehe

and monday came again and it was time to go.. til next vacation!

best damn tours!!!

I've been to series of concerts and performances when I came to live in Singapore since
2006. Amazing International artists that completely rock my world!


First..

with Kuya Eric, ate Jo & Aida..
it was one of my dreams (to see Don Moen perform)!
it came true!

the Police.February 4, 2008.Singapore Indoor Stadium

with my sister (who flew from the Philippines just to see Sting!) and Edi.

...with Macky and Edi.Len and Ayi.

Brandon Boyd is a god :)

me, Edi...and Mig Ayesa :)

..i've fallen in love with Queen!

with my chaperons: shei and edi :)

yes, I am an Avril fan!

with shai & edi. memories of teen years! Basti Artadi and the rest were still playin' it best!!

Oasis..and the crazy gang!

Keane. an absolute sedative (my vicodine for the night).

...my best-est:badette, macky and edi. our birthday gift to macky..and first date with badette.

and more to come....